escape the facade

life has its many down and little ups

2008-04-02T11:12:00.002+08:00

many things have happened over the weekend. the following day after i quit, i went to see my eye specialist, mr jerry tan, who's my father's ns friend. then we chatted for awhile and got a document that states my eye condition - Left Duane's Syndrome. so we hurried to the cmpb to pass the document for processing. the place is inefficient man. 4+ we reached, the clerk told us that most of the staffs are gone and the office was close. luckily, we manage to find someone. i was later asked the sign documents to acknowledge my downgrading of pes from A B to E and the change of my enlistment date to further notice. i was really very sad when i learnt abt the downpes and that i cannot be an army man/pilot.

sunday went to sao qing ming went to many places, mandai, bishan, toa payoh etc. went for my bro's band concert at night which was nice.

pratically spent the few days sulking abt my ns thing, alot of things haven't been proceeding well in life for me. the idea of being labelled as a "less than human/defect" keep popping in my head once in a while. luckily i got friends who are there for me and joan by my side. =)

now mrs goh dun wan to hire me back coz my enlistment date is unconfirmed. hear from my ex-collegues that she's not hiring.. maybe have to find a new job again. sian..

i guess life must go on. no matter how rocky it is.. well i'm trying to look for some upgrading course that i can take within the 2yrs i'll be in the ns/admin.

anyone with info on part time degree/diploma/upgrading courses that takes 2 yrs or less pls tell me okay!

STRESSful

2008-03-26T21:36:00.002+08:00

i've finally finished submitting my nus,ntu & nie application form. its seriously a v pekchek thing to do. all thats left is to make payment and await for good news, if there's any. lol.

this week is my last week at work. i've tendered my resignation on tuesday. feeling abit sad cause i'll probably miss the company [most of them] as it reminds me of going to school somehow. reporting at 8.30. talk crap. make fun of another etc... this job certainly widen my horizon and let me see many things. like its normal in life for a staff to work for 10+ yrs without a raise in position.. like how people with authority are able to shout and scold u by justifying with their power. like how many Singaporean who complain abt the government policy.. and importantly, how the redtaping process comes about! i'll certainly miss saying " hi gd morning/afternoon, how may i help u..... my name is mr pow, p-o-w.pau. ah yes. bao qing tian =x "

This job has benefitted me alot as i've indeed improved on my articulation of words and be more outspoken i suppose due to my job nature. seriously i like my job, own small area, comfy chair, hi tech telephone and being paid at 7.20+/hr lol.

well. tml's my last day at work. wonder wat will my collegues plan for me. i think i'm the 1st guy to leave this sector.

on a random note. i caught Rule No. 1 with my gal a week ago. 15 more days before i enter ns. omg..

my future course?

2008-03-12T20:42:00.002+08:00

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?
You scored as a Biology/Chemistry/Geology
You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Biology, Chemistry, Geology, or related majors (e.g., Biochemistry, Environmental Science, Forestry, Fisheries and Wildlife, Genetics, Marine Biology, Zoology).

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.
Biology/Chemistry/Geology
100%
Mathematics/Statistics
94%
Physics/Engineering/Computer
81%
Psychology/Sociology
75%
Education/Counseling
69%
Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health
50%
Accounting/Finance/Marketing
44%
HR/BusinessManagement
31%
Religion/Theology
25%
PoliticalScience/Philosophy
25%
Visual&PerformingArts
19%
French/Spanish/OtherLanguage
19%
History/Anthropology/LiberalArts
13%
English/Journalism/Comm
6%

the future is full of uncertainties

2008-03-10T21:46:00.002+08:00

hi ppl. 7th of March was another eventful day as the A lvl results was released. i was both surprised and disappointed with mine. it soon sunk into my head that hardwork isn't everything. that slogging ur guts out and giving it ur all doesn't promises gd results. soon after which i found myself discussing with my friends abt planning for the next step- admission to uni. turned out there was alot of things i duno.

soon after. i fell sick. i spent my time looking at all the stuffs that the unis have sent to us. and narrowed it down. what i'll be doing now is prioritizing which course i'll take and taking into account its something i've interest in. sadly. it seems tt friends are telling me that the admission to chemical engineering is going to have some tough competition. judging by my results. i think i'll settle for those not-so-high in demand courses for local uni if nt i'll be going to a private uni, perhaps SIM. well. i'll be dropping down with joan and a couple of classmate to seek advice from teachers. hopefully i can make a wise choice afterwhich.

tension has been rather high. parents have been asking abt whether i can go uni [of coz i dun have an answer for them]. many questions, few answers and no encouragement.

anw. many other things have occured. joan changed back to her old job. kc graduated, xc quitted his, lin wei and yeow ting passing out this week and many others that i cannot recall. soon i'll be quitting mine and going ns soon. so eventful. lol

vexing

2008-03-01T00:17:00.002+08:00

that was how i felt about my week working. it seems that almost all of the staff in our dept have been scolded regarding abt the late penalty issued this week. i still got a 1 wk old pending case which i've yet to settle and its starting to bother me. haha. i guess i've cultivating this habit of bring back home the sense of guilt and worry from work. today during lunch, my collegue talked to me abt a lvl result. saying that he's hoping that the plane carrying the results will encounter a misfortune and loss all our results. he then talked abt the grades have been recorded in the system already and hoping that someone will launch a virus to wipe out all the data. and how we'll get back our refund and retake our results this yr. LOL.

hmm. i've started an a/c in viwawa.com to play mahjong and sometimes tai de. lol. its okay larh. prefer the real one though.
actualli i've got a query in my head. since blogs are like online diaries. how come there're news about how a blogger is being charged/complaint abt his entry where he is suppose to be freely share his thoughts. ironic? food for thoughts btw.

bliss?

2008-02-15T22:07:00.002+08:00

Just when i was getting comfy with my job, all the temporary staffs were notified to take a complusory 2 day leave every week. the reason was none other than cut cost since the peak period is over. Sly man. its either like a slow poison which makes us think of switching job and another hand. it solves the $ problem. was vexing over it coz if there's gg to be retrenchment. the 1st target grp would be the soon-to-be army boys. with only one mth to spare. who'll hire me? haha.

Ytd was valentines' day. went to fetch zihui and had pizza for dinner. i like the vday gift she got for me. haha.

Today was the 1st of the many upcoming leave i took. basically did nothing but watched the 1st 20 episodes of bleach since i started watching from its 100+ episode. packed my room a little too. yuppz. one day just got wasted just lidat.

welcome to the 19 yrs old club

2008-02-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

i just turned 19 not too long ago. signifying the last of my teenage yr. and yes, meaning that i'll be going ns soon & getting back my a lvl results sooner. 1stly, i wish to express my thanks to the baskets, namely lin wei, lin xiong, qi han, xiaocong, chengen, koon chin, leslie, guo hao, yeow ting for the mahjong set and table. my dear joan for the shirt. my family for celebrating with me and friends who wished me and rmbed my bday.

i've gotten pretty used to my job. up till now, i've only encountered one rude caller. maybe coz i'm only in charge of tv license [fyi its the fee the MDA (media development authority) charge u for having tv(s) in ur house] whereas other collegues are handling callers of all kinds including owners to lawyers regarding abt the property tax and sometimes the conversations they have are equivalent to a lawsuit debate.

man. everyone's getting busy. its so hard to spend quality time with friends and loved ones. okay. thats random. i'll be reading up on my old amaths textbook in order to be fully prepared for my cousin's tuition tml. ciaoz

long story

2008-01-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

a quick summary on what has been going on in my life

1. i've worked in changi airport for 12days and quitted
2. i started work in iras the following day lol!
3. tml i can finally rest after working continuously for 10+ days
4. o lvl result's been released, so glad that my bro got 13!
5. i'm gg have a trial tutoring, tutoring my couz amaths.

firstly, working in the airport wasn't that bad at all. made some friends. saw people of all kinds ( mostly angmohs, japanese, korean, french, germans) and on my last day, helped an elderly man to the toilet even though he speak cantonese which i dun understand at all, v meaningful. most importantly, i've learnt to navigate my way around the airport, knowing most of the stuffs here. lol. alrite. belows are some of the pics i took secretly or doing nothing.

F1 formula exihibition in t2 transit
acclaimed largest LCD in t2 transit

stairways to heaven? nah. its just a 2 storey escalator to t3 departure
fifa world cup! the real thing! only was there for 2 days

closeup

the toilet with the best view

art haha

the constructing crown plaza hotel

T3 transit; above can access internet

my seasonal pass and nametag. lol.

At my new job, we were given 100+ pages to read abt property tax on the very 1st day. LOL. so kena stressed. then soon my supervisor kept asking the grp of us freshman to do their admin stuffs. i also kena stressed coz alot of things i duno then was afraid that i might make the poor person to pay extra pty tax or cancel their giro a/c.

Today finally did something more meaningful. did buddying with this perm staff known as mdm sum. i was listening to their conversation via a earpiece and followed up on what she did. she gave me pointers which was very helpful and taught me how to fax. after which. had to do more sai-kan, had to tie the rubbish bag of all the disposed confidential letter and dragged it from one end to another. the bag of paper felt like a dead corpse. damn heavy. had to drag 6 "corpses"

alrite. its quite a long post. happy reading. maybe will update on sunday

changi airport!

2008-01-10T23:04:00.000+08:00

just started on my work, reluctantly though. the thought of being an airport guide, meeting and greeting new faces was great initially. but thats what the agency ppl wans u to think. what they didn't let us know was that we had to stand for a full 6hrs with no meal break inbetween and worse, had to stand in till the nxt shift comes which was as long as 45 mins.

9jan: T3 big opening!
was deployed at t3 on its big opening day at the skytrain there. did nothing much actually. had to handle lost people and people ranging from the boliao to the weird type. i still rmbed 2 aunties asking " eh xiao didi. where's the crowd ah? we wan join the crowd" and another weird auntie saying tt the security guards in the transit are a waste of government/her $ and talked abt how a car can bomb the departure hall but its nearly impossible to crash all the way to transit. seriously. i think she either got a vivid imagination or she needs to get back into reality. ok enough of badmouthing.

10jan: confusion
today i was posted at t2 kerbside and was the incharge of 15 ppl! LOL. it was super tiring doing kerbside. needed to keep moving along the kerb for a full 6hrs asking passenger who alighted to tell me their flight no. and i had to cross check with the air schedule. there were many ppl who were at the wrong terminal. it was more fruitful than ytd i'll say. yea.

now i'm still waiting to get my employment letter and i'm trying to get out of this job ! coz i really dun wish to work for my full 3 mths. maybe a mth will be okay. so pray hard everything goes well for me coz my mum is at my throat thinking i'm being tricked and trapped by some con company. -.-

transition: 2007 onto 2008

2008-01-01T11:45:00.000+08:00

woah. its been like months since i update this blog. alot of things happened this yr, some delightful, others disappointing.

hmm. school-wise. had the national vball competition. we learnt a very impt lesson, winning ain't everything, as long as the team played as one against strong opponents, the score doesn't really matters. although to others who just look at our "all-lost" streak, i know the team has tried its best. i had the Alvls paper this yr too. it was really crazy. going to sch, studied in the library from 9-9 for 2 mths, went home to study till 2 w/o complains. took the exams which was v new to us as our revision papers are unlike the Alvls, nearly gave up hope after taking my econs paper which i felt i was gg to fail. i met many ppl in JC. some "hi-bye" friends. some i thought i could believe in but yet disappoint me times and times again. Of coz, there were genuine friends i made along the way too.

the holidays after the A lvls were wasted LOL. i watched many animes like prince of tennis, US serial like Heroes, gym,swim and mahjong wif my friends to pass the time. i went genting with my family too. i tried looking for an admin job but it seems like guys going to NS weren't tt hot on demand. currently training and will be doing a 1day work tml at changi airport. LOL.

lastly. i wanna thank tt special someone whose constantly been there for me. thick and thin. and the many quarrels we had and the much happiness we felt. its all the building block for our foundation.

i hope tt my new yr's resolution will come true. 2008 a brand new yr ahead!

2007-07-18T23:37:00.000+08:00

i realized i've lost my hse keys only during physics lesson which i was practically dozing off.
i wonder wat does the OM do? Operating Manager sounds big though. he seems to be either walking aimlessly, doing something rather random and unrelated to his job or plainly slacking his not-so-his-own office.

Oh i've gotten back most of my results. not sth to be v proud of. oh. mrs sim commented i've made drastic improvements in my econs. yea. thanks to all those mindmapping effort i've done. she even made me to share the class abt my huge change *blush blush* haha.

well. in another 4 days i'll take another huge step- not using msn. its gonna be real challenging since i'm like a msn addict. i feel rather weird not gg online when i'm at home. well hopefully this way i'll be even more productive wif the more time i'll be with.

alrite. duno how many days/months/years i'm gg to update this blog. so ciaoz. mugging's the new "fashion" or frenzy. we all gotta admit it.

p.s. those including that someone who didn't do well for mid years. cheer up and pick urself up asap. this race ain't over till the A lvls comes. All the best everyone!

Defence;the best offence

2007-06-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

this morning 3hr badminton has left me with muscle aches, cramps and opened blisters. didn't realli study today. couldn't realli focus.

i found a jap anime of transformers. rather cool. i can't wait for the movie to be released. i read that there's going to be a sequel to it featuring the other transformers like dinobots and insecticons. for those who duno what am i talking abt. i'm just trying to put across that i'm a guy who's reliving his childhood life.

why no comments?

mug la. zzz

happiness being measured by the size

2007-06-13T23:15:00.000+08:00

cls bbq on monday. nt as high as the previous few bbqs. i guess its due to the stress from the approaching mid yrs.

went to tp to do some mugging for the past 2 days. finally met my gf's 9yr long best friend aka her twin sis, Jean. she happen to be a volleyballer btw. cool rite? back to the pt. tp appears to be big to me, apparently larger than SRJC. duh.

the library is 8 or 9 storeys tall. well equipped with books for bookworms, tapes/vcd for movie goer or reviewers, and tables for muggers. there's single table, table for 2, long tables for grp discussion, u can even book their study room if u find the already-quiet library too noisy where u can isolate urself and study in peace. sorta scary. u'll find that u're spoilt for choices.

now comparing that with SR. we can see the vast contrast in terms of size, facilities and productivity.

anw. i went to see the 3rd tie da for my middle finger. stupid qmo. i bet if he read this entry he'll be laughing at the com and calling me "noobbb!!!" when he sees me. anw. the tie da's have their own weird yet funny character. the tie da i saw today is actually a kungfu master who claims to learn many skills and i guess he uses his jiu yang sheng gong on his patients. when i visited him, he injured his arm coz he just sparred with someone else. eh. he's 70+ leh. mai siao siao. later he drinks his medicated wine and perform drunken fist. oh. he wanted to impart his skills to my dad during his last visit. imagine him doing some kick-butt action if the people at imh misbehave. all in a day's work i guess.

alrite. off to hit the books. dun wanna be a loser in life. badminton tml.

-ar [edited]

2007-06-08T18:40:00.000+08:00

-ar means all random in dota fyi. as it suggest, this entry is gg to be v random.

a recap on wat has happened

my results has dropped alot whereas the nagging, ranting and insults from my parents had increased significantly. they claim they know abt me. but when my ct called them to talk abt my academic results. they were pretty dumbfounded and the conversation ended fruitless. i love my parents.

i haven't clear Napfa yet. when term 3 stars, i'll be doing pe with the j1s. utter demoralizer especially if someone u know is in the same grp. hello punggol park!

for the past 2 weeks we've been having lecture revision. there's realli no life in a jc2 student. anw. it seems the teachers are realli worried abt our batch. my teachers have been asking why the cls nv consult them. i realli must comment on the effort put in by the teachers into the students.

i've been craving for sushi buffet all week. anw. my diet's of only proteins and carbohydrates. no roughage unless u include the chilli content inside.

lastly. i've stepped down from my cca- volleyball. but always attend their training to help out/play. looking at them makes me think abt the past. The joy, fun, anger, suan-ing, slacking, suffering, training and not forgetting abt bitching for the past yr. i dun think i can forget abt bond forged and team spirit built alongside with coach guidance. it has been simply amazing.

had a vball camp like last week. 1st day was pretty messed up. after treasure hunt. everything went WILD WILD WET for us j2s. nobody slpt properly and it was pretty hilarious to see both j1 & j2s looking tired and still had to train. oh. coach has a new haircut.
election took place. some were chosen as expected, some just made me dumbfounded. anw. i wish them all the best in leading the team.

after reading wat i've written. ~~i think i've tried too hard in attempting to make my entries interesting, instead it seems erratic.~~ and after much thoughts. i think the previous entry was senseless.

Sushi anyone?

WOOHOO

2007-06-06T20:03:00.001+08:00

i'm back blogging after many many months of retreat. WOOHOO!

2006-11-17T22:53:00.000+08:00

its weird why humans have got a brain each.
but we all can use only a small proportion of it.
everyone crave for knowledge & power.
imagine if u could break through the limits of our human body and mind
& use 100% of ur brainpower and 100% of ur body muscles.
wun that be amazing.
but then again. there's probably some reason why we're created with certain limitations

i dun like feeling useless and helpless at times. make me stronger.

2006-11-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

today we submitted our gpf- group project file.
amazingly. it took more than an hour. and my grp had a slight problem too. how grt.
after submitting. some of us went to have lunch at long john and i had a real pathetic one. we played badminton later too.

so this concludes PW
no more dreaded PW lessons for 3 consective days per week
no more meetings
no more stress from meeting the datelines
and no more facing ....

but then again.
it also marks the end of SR091
from strangers in the same cls.
we learnt how to work as a grp, to some extent, bonding together
sharing our wealth and woes during project work
and even to the point of sharing a common interest- O2jamming!

well. i'm grateful for having such wonderful clsmates as my team [most of them] in my group who can stand my crappiness. thankz for suffering for nearing 8mths with me.

2006-11-13T00:47:00.000+08:00

pooled/bowled with the cls
pooled/cs with the guys
sending her friend to airport.
vball training
cls bbq
lunch wif family

thats pretty much wat i did all these while. its time for another break.

2006-11-06T11:17:00.000+08:00

i've been very tired for the past few days

friday
4hrs of rest.
had our mother tongue A lvl paper.
went for steamboat dinner wif some of 1s13

sat
6hrs of rest
3hr+ of volleyball training/playing
after taking a bath.
met up wif angeline b4 meeting claudia. jianfeng. roysten. nelson
had dinner
watch convenant.

sun
7hrs of rest- overslept
went out wif family to marine parade to eat dim sum
walked parkway & ecp.
i was easily irritable by then
3hrs of pw

lucky for me. today there ain't sch. so i manage to "recover" my loss slp.
anw. i should be going. meeting her =)

2006-11-01T23:46:00.000+08:00

why everyone's looking forward to school lately?
u can find the answer at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7W0hZQKMF-A
just jk.

2006-11-01T21:11:00.000+08:00

ytd after our last op rehearsal.
some of us had lunch
the guys, namely jiaqing, andy, wen hui, jeremy & me, bowl-ed

today we, me and her, went to pass up our i & r.
we then had pastamania, caught a BORING movie
things would have been alot better if i didn't fall sick

2 more days to chi A.

2006-10-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

today we went out.
FIRSTLY. in the morning we went to the polyclinic to get her eye checked
SECONDLY. we went to get our bait[ prawn] at her fav ntuc. lolz
then. we went to pasir ris park. found a spot and started fishing.

i guess we were pretty hilarious. by the time we reached paris ris park. our prawn all turned cook. we're so considerate. fishes would have sterlized food so no tummy aches. lols.
then i tried casting. but forgot to release the "safety lock" and end up hooking myself instead.
anw. the wind got too strong and the current swept our baits and line back towards shore.

she had a go at fishing too. it was v funny too. the line got caught in the tree in her 1st cast. but she's a natural. in her following cast. she caught something the size of my finger- my finger actualli. haha.

some pics during our outing

so graceful when fishing

fisherman pow?

natural fisher

comical.

=))

though we didn't catch any fish. got sunburnt. it was pretty much fun.
my eye's hurting now and i have training tml. i know someone's worried abt me. so i'll turn in right after this post.
hope you enjoyed our long-yet-short day today. =)

2006-10-22T01:09:00.000+08:00

just caught DeathNote with her

a great movie for those who never read the manga
it shows that power ain't good.
Good and evil is divided by one very fine line
i love the movie coz Kira and L have very smart minds
and i spent most of my time guessing their moves correctly. haha

i guess i'm ready to be the next Death God.
remember to catch me in DeathNote 2. bye

2006-10-20T00:25:00.000+08:00

many a times we've grew so accustomed to school's theory based lifestyle whereby there's a solution or answer to every single issue/problem.
i thought that that was true even in real life. but the harsh reality has made me realize that there's no perfect solution to everything. its either compromising or letting the other party have his/her way.

There's no way to make both sides happy.
someone else will be suffering in silence

today had op. i screwed my part badly.
back at home. it was no better with all that nagging
sometimes i wonder why my life is such a failure- namely studies and family.
i hate my life but nt you as u've been ever so caring & true to me

2006-10-18T21:03:00.000+08:00

saw all my results.

GP- 47.5/100 = 47.5% E
Chi- 53.5/110 = 48.6% E
Physics- = 57.3% C
Econs- 41.5/80 = 51.9% D
Chem- = 53% D
Maths- = 64% B

Marks: 55/80
PROMOTED

self reflection:

so i've promoted to j2. but with this crap results. i'll nv reach a proper university. time to work extra harder i guess.
so one of my major worry is gone. no it ain't abt promoting. its abt being with you. ONE more year of TORTURE with me. endure yea? haha =)

"i'm sry for being KIDDY. i'll nv let u go ever.."

2006-10-16T23:08:00.000+08:00

to her:
well. one week has passed since it all began. though it seems a short time but time spent with ya is like eternity and i enjoy every single moment of it. since u LOVE econs. i'll write in econ terms.

the DEMAND for you has rise. causing a SHORTAGE. but i believe we'll work things out, maybe compromise to reach an DYNAMIC EQUILIBRIUM. In the LONG RUN i predict that we'll still go strong. CETERIS PARIBUS.

=))

2006-10-15T11:35:00.000+08:00

so many things have happened since this week.
anw. let's talk abt s13's bbq on friday the 13.
we arrived at around 7 after taking a "short" walk from mac
we bbq-ed the food.
miss tan came. took photos
some of us stayed back.
played bluff.
saw "big mug"
slept facing the beach. lotsa mosquito bite me becoz my blood v rich in protein, glucose, vitamin and minerals. jk.
left at 6.30. sea breeze made her uncomfortable.

all in all. bbq was good. overnite was great. you are the best. =)

2006-10-10T21:11:00.000+08:00

the MOST unbelievable, unforgettable, unimaginable ~~unjustifiable~~ thing has happened to me! =)

ok. lately i've been with the class these 2days. ytd we badminton for 3hrs. today the guys swam & i caught a movie with the holyrians.
i'm currently rotting with strained legs and arms. even the body is starting to ache. i guess its becoz its been a vvv long time since i exercise.
seriously. i dun feel like going for the palette activity tml. its like a total waste of time. in addition, for my side, i dun find our programme well planned. i foresee confusion and fingers will be pointed at none other then urs truly. but haiz. i cannot ignore my ~~burden~~ "responsibility".

ok. back to rotting.

2006-10-08T00:59:00.000+08:00

project work was never so cool,
neither was it useful as a tool.
time spent together. we had fun,
but in the process. we did none.

so here we are, hot on our heels
getting wr done. grinding the mill
funny it seems, that we wish for it to end
yet some of us wish deadlines would extend

op will be our final task
talking to the audience with a smiling mask
voice need to be loud, hair kept clean
nobody would like someone who is so mean

everyone pls. pw teachers are not so flirt
do not treat them like some dirt
though pw is ur 10% a lvl entrance pass
but ask urself, how long can u last?

10 hrs to the start of the end!

2006-10-05T22:06:00.000+08:00

tml ...
some will stop worrying coz majority have finished their paper
some will start worrying regarding their results
some, can't stop worrying abt every single thing regard promos
sad to say, some just dun give a care abt promoting..

ironic ain't it. how man difer from other animals in terms of mentality.
issit becoz we're smarter thats why we dun behave like colonised organisms like bees & ants
or issit we have low EQ, explaining why human rage wars with one another & can't seem to co-exist as a whole species.

btw. is there any formula to calculate the percentage uncertainty of the human emotion? i guess not.. haha..

2006-10-04T22:41:00.000+08:00

econs paper down. i dun think the fact whether i read or not will help coz the moment i sit for the paper i'll forget abt 70%. so disappointing....

everyone's worried abt retaining except me. not that i'm sure i'll promote.. but i see no point of crying over spilled milk.
~~somehow i realli regret not spending time with my cls like the tekong trip/sandcastle building etc. mr ng said i'll regret someday. i guess today's the day. argh...~~

dun live to regret.

ONE TWO THREE,
take my hand and come with me
because you look so fine and i really wanna make you mine.
I say you look so fine
that I really wanna make you MINE

sometimes i feel like an outcaste in my class.

2006-10-03T16:40:00.000+08:00

ok. this week 2 papers down. another 2 more to go.

maths and chem were actualli alrite papers.
only problem is that i'm always freezing halfway while doing the paper.

today was so much worse. it rained and the air con was still as cold as ever. the coldness was so unbearable that i could see my pen shaking & can't draw properly for the graph question-.-"

i think i lost like 16 marks for maths w/o counting the carelessness & left a 20 mark question for chem undone [wth].

ok. i must train to be as fit as miss cheng as she bear the coldness in a sleeveless attire.

byebye h3 chem . haizzz

2006-10-01T13:07:00.000+08:00

its 1pm rite now. less than 24hrs b4 my next paper- maths

things to do:
-maths.
-chem.
- get a jacket/sweater/windbreaker
- get my eyes checked

with the time left. i guess i'm can only accomplish the 1st 2 targets. i'll probably be freezing to death tml and making tonnes of careless mistakes with my 'sharp' eyesight i have now.

its ironic that a few days ago i was so anxious to get the promos over and done with
now i find myself in a situation where there's so many questions & doubts left unanswered but lack the time to find teachers due to promos.

here's another joke. i dun think my parents know that i'm sitting for my promos rite now. maybe we're drifted too much from one another. even having a simple meal where everyone get together seems like an uphill task. even if we get together. we only exchange very few sentences due to the fact our minds are probably preoccupied with other thoughts.

although we're really trying hard to spend quality time together. but it seems really ineffective. maybe its me. maybe time has taken its toll on me & i'm numb to it all.

you may envy me for my freedom & independence. but i envy u guys for having such loving parents who'll shower care & concern every now and then.

ok. time to fight this battle
alone.

2006-09-28T21:48:00.000+08:00

today's i came to sch
with a sense of arrogance, confidence & a lil "craziness"
after the gp paper.
i left sch
symbolising the word "failure".
one paper 'gone'.
5 more to go. and today's just the start of it.

anyway. on the BrightSide. today's lunch was rather interesting. its only known to the 5-6 of us who were present.

ok. i'm seriously tired. yesterday i laid on the bed at 11.30. only to slp at 1+ and forcing myself to wake up at 5.30 to do extra revision. maybe i'll do the same for tml's chi. haha.

not everything's printed black or white in this world.
they come in different shades of grey.
maybe its best to live in self denial/deceit rather than to pry into the uncertain.

2006-09-27T10:48:00.000+08:00

1)Are u in love?
i'm "in love". "out love". in-out, in-out shake it all about
2)is the 1 u love in ur sch?
yes
3)is she/he in ur class?
sometimes
4)whats the name?
i haven't named my volleyball
5)whats the gender?
female? its "soft touch" so must handle with care. lol
6)whats the nationality?
japan
7)whats the religion?
i dun think it has one
8)with which female do u like spending time with in ur class?
the gal who enjoys my company
9)with which male do u like spending time with in ur class?
the guy who enjoys my company
10)do u hate some1 in ur class now?
not to the extent of hate
11)do u want him/her dead?
of coz not
12)do u need help to achieve 11?
no
13)which group of ppl in class do u hate now?
dun have
14)who is the most entertaining person in class?
me. ok larh. wenhui
15)who is the most irritating persion in class now?
wenhui again? jk
16)what do u wish the class to change?
the no.13 to no.11
17)whose personality do u want the most in class?
nobody. everyone's their own flaw & strengths
18)whose itelligence do u want the most in class?
i'm content with mine.
19)who do u think should get the student of the year in class.
why me again? jk. i think jiaqing/jeremy
20)evaluate
coz they're popular and well liked by the cls

The five lucky people:
1. FIVE
2. FOUR
3. THREE
4. TWO
5. ONE

zero. i'm finally done with another questionaire. anw its true tt if the survey questions are sensitive. ppl will tend not to say the truth & even crap. so wen hui, maybe u should consider revising ur questionaire. haha

ok. off to mac. 1 MORE DAY!

i'm loving it

2006-09-27T10:25:00.001+08:00

1)Are u in love?
i'm "in love". "out love". in-out, in-out shake it all about
2)is the 1 u love in ur sch?
yes
3)is she/he in ur class?
sometimes
4)whats the name?
i haven't named my volleyball
5)whats the gender?
female? its "soft touch" so must handle with care. lol
6)whats the nationality?
japan
7)whats the religion?
i dun think it has one
8)with which female do u like spending time with in ur class?
any gal
9)with which male do u like spending time with in ur class?
any boi
10)do u hate some1 in ur class now?
not to the extent of hate
11)do u want him/her dead?
of coz not
12)do u need help to achieve 11?
no
13)which group of ppl in class do u hate now?
dun have
14)who is the most entertaining person in class?
me. ok larh. wenhui
15)who is the most irritating persion in class now?
wenhui again? jk
16)what do u wish the class to change?
the no.13 to no.11
17)whose personality do u want the most in class?
nobody. everyone's their own flaw & strengths
18)whose itelligence do u want the most in class?
i'm content with mine.
19)who do u think should get the student of the year in class.
why me again? jk. i think jiaqing/jeremy
20)evaluate
coz they're popular and well liked by the cls

The five lucky people:
1. FIVE
2. FOUR
3. THREE
4. TWO
5. ONE

zero. i'm finally done with another questionaire. anw its true tt if the survey questions are sensitive. ppl will tend not to say the truth & even crap. so wen hui, maybe u should consider revising ur questionaire. haha

ok. off to mac. 1 MORE DAY!

i'm loving it

2006-09-27T10:25:00.000+08:00

1)Are u in love?
yes
2)is the 1 u love in ur sch?
yes
3)is she/he in ur class?
yes
4)whats the name?
i duno her name.
5)whats the gender?
of coz female. -.-
6)whats the nationality?
ask her
7)whats the religion?
ask her
8)with which female do u like spending time with in ur class?
any gal
9)with which male do u like spending time with in ur class?
any boi
10)do u hate some1 in ur class now?
not to the extend of hate
11)do u want him/her dead?
of coz not
12)do u need help to achieve 11?
no
13)which group of ppl in class do u hate now?
dun have
14)who is the most entertaining person in class?
me? ok larh. wenhui
15)who is the most irritating persion in class now?
wenhui again? jk
16)what do u wish the class to change?
the no.13 to no.11
17)whose personality do u want the most in class?
nobody. everyone's their own flaw & strengths
18)whose itelligence do u want the most in class?
i'm content with mine.
19)who do u think should get the student of the year in class.
why me again? jk. i think jiaqing/jeremy
20)evaluate
coz they're popular and well liked by the cls
19The five lucky people:
1. FIVE
2. FOUR
3. THREE
4. TWO
5. ONE
zero. i'm finally done with another questionaire. anw its true tt if the survey questions are sensitive. ppl will tend not to say the truth. so wen hui, maybe u should consider revising ur questionaire. haha

ok. off to mac. 1 MORE DAY!

i'm loving it

2006-09-25T23:07:00.000+08:00

another questionaire. this time from momojoanjoan.

1) Do the following
2) Choose 5 people to do this after you've completed yours
3) Leave a tag on their tagboard to let them know
Favourite colour: blue, black, white
Favourite food: anything? as long it dun taste extremely sour/bitter
Favourite movie: comical/horror/action pac movies.
Favourite sport: volleyball. badminton
Favourite ice-cream: sticky chewy chocolate
Favourite TV shows: Amercian Dad. The Oprah Show.
Current mood: restless. slightly mad(crazy)
Current clothes: blue sleeveless & black shorts
Current desktop: water bottle. clock. handphone. maths booklets. laptop etc.
Current toenail colour: normal color
Current time: 11.11pm
Current annoyance: promos. let's get it over and done with!
Current thoughts: whats the point of doing this?
First best friend: forgot.. so long ago.
First crush: secondary school.
First movie: jurassic park? haha. i dun realli remember either
Last cigarette: none
Last car ride: seriously. its been quite some time my dad drove me somewhere.
Last crush: its the same person as my 1st
Last phone call: why not ask the person who call/received my call instead?
Last CD played: franz ferinand
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: i dun think so
Have you ever broken the law: jaywalking? hahaha
Have you ever been arrested: nah.
Have you ever skinny dipped: never.
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: mad.
Have you ever loved and lost somebody: ya
The five lucky people:
1. xiaocong
2. leslie
3. andy
4. wen hui
5. hui lin

2006-09-25T21:44:00.000+08:00

mugged at Mac from 10am to 6pm. not bad eh?
ok. something interesting happened. i order a beef FANtastic w/o veggie meal and i got a chicken FANtastic w/o veggie instead. so i went back & told them. they got me my burger & gave me the chicken FANtastic for free.
maybe they decided to reward me for being so hardworking. hahaha. jk
not having such a huge appetite. i decided to let the guys to have my free FANtastic.

anw. our new s'pore idol is Hadi. hmm. i think there'll be some racial issue raised.

wat a FANtastic day.

2006-09-24T23:54:00.000+08:00

As tagged by mr andy, i'm suppose to answer the following questions.

Single, taken or married?
single
are you happy with your life now?
no. i want to achieve something in life
when you meet the right person,do you fall in love with him/her fast?
nope. time is essential to develop feelings
have you ever had your heart broken?
duh
do you believe that there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
nope.
would you take someone back if she cheats on you?
cheat her back? i'm not so childish.
have you ever talked about marriage with another before?
i dun so.
do you want children?
yes. but i'll respect my wife decision since she's the ONE suffering 9mths.
how many?
compromise with my wife to have at least 2
would you ever consider adoption?
well. again this sorta thing requires both party to decide rite? i'm okay with it
if someone likes you right now,what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feelings?
ask her gd friend to tell me. haha. so bhb.
do you enjoy getting into relationship?
duno. nv been into ONE
what is the furtherest thing you and your ex did?
no answer.
do you believe in love at first sight?
nah. i think its most probably infatuation
are you romantic?
maybe.
do you believe you can change someone?
ya. did before. haha
if you could get married somewhere,where would it be?
hdb flat downstairs. haha. jk. a simple church will do. if i'm romantic enuff i'll get married at venice.
do you give in easily when you are fighting?
no. i'm as stubborn as it gets. if words can't do the talking, my fist will. haha.jk
do you have feelings for someone right now?
ya. maybe.
have you ever wish that you could have someone but u messed it up?
of coz.
have you ever broken a heart?
yes
if one day your best friend falls in love with the person you are deeply in love with,what will you do?
tell him " MAY THE BEST MAN WIN! GD LUCK COZ U'RE GOING TO NEED IT!" -.-"
are you missing someone now?
guess so.
Now,you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs.write down their names in the list below.Tag them in their blogs to let them know.
1.someONE
2.noONE
3.anyONE
4.everyONE
5.theONE

it ends here.

2006-09-23T00:39:00.000+08:00

today's the last day of school b4 we sit for our PROMOS in less than a week's time. miss tan wrote each of us a 'farewell cum gdluck' msg attached to chocs for everyone in 1s13. everyone's a differentiated product then.

mine goes:

Poh Wun,
you have evolved from the young lad who had the audacity to hand in a 0.5 page essay to a sensible young man who tries to fill up a 3page writing pad. i'm really glad for your transformation. you're a smart and quick and you know that you have it within you to do well and go far in life. always remember that wits dun get you very far w/o hard work. they have to go hand-in-hand. all the best for your promos! - Miss Tan

on a "KIDDY" level. u might that miss tan was praising me for having some IQ & essential lifeskills to succeed in life
but in actual fact, she was trying to motivate me to study hard for econs and not be so lazy, cautioning me thatif i do not, i'll end up failing badly. =/

not bad for an evaluation of material rite? hahaha

2006-09-21T22:03:00.000+08:00

its coming to 10 and i still have tutorials undone- chem, physics, econs,gp

i realized i forgot wat's family warmth and love.
my home is like a hotel in which i check in out of.
maybe thats why i'm a uncouth being
not that i lack of parental guidance
but its becoz i chose to live my life this way; the wrong way

i nearly lost it today. i felt so down and depressed at a point of time yet nobody seem to notice. i needed someone to talk to bt everyone seemed busy with their own conversation. amidst their laughter i felt like a loner.

i let myself dwell in depression and despair within a time limit after which i snapped out of it and proceeded to do wr with the grp, "wearing" a usual crappy front. nobody notices this drastic yet unapparent change in me.

maybe no one cares at all.

2006-09-20T20:12:00.000+08:00

yesterday i felt so guilty for not doing econs hw & not understanding miss tan lessons despite the effort she puts in to make each econs lesson more meaningful to look forward to. Econs seems to be a subject which i feel more and more foreign, the more i try to understand the theory behind it. haiz.

On the Brightside, today i had 2 oral presentations- chi and econs. both of them done badly. i told the cls abt my dream of making everyone happy. they laughed because it was nothing but a joke since it wasn't profitable. maybe i was too comical in presenting but i was serious abt it.
oyah. today me and jiaqing were late for sch. we were made to sing the national anthem & pledge with the other latecomers. wat a joke; just like the sch itself. and i came wif my hair unkept. haha.

i realised that there's demerit for variation of good: sometimes a consumer might be confused by the variety of product name and not achieve satisfaction. i.e. "rough mee" and "thick noodle" which i mixed up when ordering Laksa & end up eating yellow mee ( duno wat name) painfully. lolz.

"make it happen"

i think that the feelings i have for her is just an infatuation

2006-09-18T22:21:00.000+08:00

today is the start of another bad week as usual.
we played softball during pe wif s10 peeps.
i was the pitcher for the last game and got one s10 guy swing the bat, hit the ball and threw the bat on the floor. then tt bat bounced on the ground and hit my kneecap.
i thought it was just some pain but after a while i noticed i start to have problems bending the knee and soon i found myself limping. LOL. mind you the bat was made of metal.

PW's another mad rush. we have to pass up our final EOM and WR by this week so that we can "focus" on promos. ironically, we'll be rushing this week do them and waste 5 gd days of studying instead.. haiz.

lastly. i'm currently w/o my msn till the end of promos. i hope that this extreme measure taken will allow me to focus 100% in my promos & not regret giving my all.

10 MORE DAYS

2006-09-17T00:08:00.000+08:00

its amazing how an action of someone, regardless how small it is, changes ur day.
yea. it was a happy day for me. =)

ok. morning soccer. afternoon studying with our little group. had dinner with joan and jeremy and went back home. now watching this movie " the family man". its such a heartwarming story even for a "cold hearted" fella like me.

its abt this guy who made a decision between career/family. in his real life, he chooses his career, neglects the family and becomes a rich man living only to work. one day, he woke up living the life as though he chose his gf and got married, had kids but lived as a peasant. initially, he can't accept living poor. but soon, he understands that life's ain't abt money. he found something that can't be found in his life of riches- happiness, love, warmth from friends/loved ones.

yes. how ironic that everyone wants to be rich, yet dun see that what one's need is purely love, happiness, warmth which should be fight for, not expecting to come by.

ok.. lemme catch the last 10 mins of the show and hope i'll not end up tearing..

2006-09-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

behind that face
you'll see a person losing faith
wanting to give up even b4 anything has started

yes. i am a coward.
let me hide in my shell & live in self-denial.

2006-09-13T01:26:00.000+08:00

ok. in case nobody noticed, i've changed my blog bg and gave it a very lame twist.

what is pride?

"a high or inordinate opinion of one's own dignity, importance, merit, or superiority, whether as cherished in the mind or as displayed in bearing, conduct, etc. " (quoted from www.dictionary.com)

initially to me, pride was everything to a person. when one possess pride, he is confident and can achieve everything in life.

but i'm WRONG for being so naive. i realize that at times, one must put down his/her pride to accomplish something which is deemed unethnical.

trust me, i made myself to write a letter to an absurd teacher with absurd "reasoning". it was no easy feat after realizing that i'm a person with high pride.
now. i've to edit it again to meet his ~~qty dd~~ demand.

man. i feel so small & cowardly. if this is the reality of this dog-eat-dog world. i guess i either nid a new change in mindset or start making plans to own a farm, plant crops, rear chicken, milk cow & sheer sheep wool.

2006-09-10T23:38:00.000+08:00

ok. i'm having school tml
no more fun time
it'll only be more mugging
and to add on, more flooding of hw in response to promos coming in 18 days!

anyway, yesterday the guys had a conversation over what's our aim in life. after discussing i realize human are indeed pathetic. let me illustrate to ur the vicious cycle which they live in.

-born into this world
-showered with tender loving care
-study till u get a diploma/degree/phd/diploma (abt early 20s)
-break into the working world
-find a gf, get married, have kids. at the same time work hard and get promoted
-have a stable job. support the family
-retire. look at the kids have their own family
-hope to have a grandchild
-r.i.p

back to our conversation. i want to be an inventor who'll create a invention that will benefit the whole of human kind. My name will be written in the history books and remembered for ages. lolz.
jon wants to be a top businessman. so we brainstormed our lil lucrative business plan. we're going to create an 'entertainment hub' at China. haha.

but it seems boring to live life, ain't it? wat we persue are the same few things- money, fame, power, love

it seems that man can never escape the 7 Deadly Sins- pride, envy, gluttony, lust, anger, greed, sloth.

if man can do so. he's immortal.

2006-09-09T02:07:00.000+08:00

arghh. how to write 700+ words for an econs essay question worth 15 marks?!
ok. if i had let's say 45 mins to do the last part of an econs question worthing 15marks.
i'll nid like abt 5 mins to do a complete mindmap with maybe time to double check.
that leaves me with 40 mins

700 / 40 = 17.5 words per min

this may seem no kick but take to account that fatigue will kick in, time is wasted due to mind-hand coordination and cancellation of lots and lots of errorsss & most importantly, the drawing of labelled diagram.

man. i nid help in econs. i nid someone to write for me. lolz.

on the bright side, i finished all my tys chem mcq questions. i'm currently doing the stupid econs essay part b, today was slack

tml/6hrs later i'll forcing myself to wake up and meet the guys for football/basketball action.

maybe i'll do my eom when i come back home.

tml marks the final episode of masked rider 555. ( ridicious, yes i know. but i duno why i find it so addictive.)

ok. econs econs....

2006-09-08T04:41:00.000+08:00

Gd morning ppl. its 4.40am. i think its time to call it a day. nites

2006-09-06T23:01:00.000+08:00

ok. i'm back after saying so much.
well. this week has been rather productive. i've been gg to sch for remedials and staying back to mug with some of the s13 peeps.
so i'm kinda completed my maths after 2 gd days of banging the subject. done 3.5 mock papers. not bad eh?

hitlist
-revise chem. practise alot on chem bondings
-physics. do tys!
-more maths i guess.

not sure whether should i spend the week studying econs. like wat miss tan said. i write in common sense but not in economic terms. i realized i nv used 'ceteris paribus' in my essay/tests b4. lol! well. tt goes that i'm a layman economist.

alrite. i'll complete my econs essay today & rest well for tml.

i seriously nid to promote.

2006-08-31T19:25:00.000+08:00

today is sr teachers' day celebration
means its the end of month of august.
and less than a month b4 our promos.

alrite. this morning. the guys decided to pon sch as my 'secret agent' told me abt the locking up of sch & the patrolling of sc. so we met up early. dota and went back HIHS to see mr tan [ a/e maths teacher] & also mrs ganesan [bio teacher].
through our talk.after this yr. mr tan will be attached to some course by moe & probably stay at hq for gd.
same goes for mrs ganesan. either this/nxt yr. she'll also be transferred to educational institute.
mrs ang [ chem teacher] went to zhonghua to carry on her teaching after educating our batch.
bargay [ ss teacher] also duno go where liao.

seems like all the gd teachers are going off one by one.
maybe nxt yr no nid go back hihs liao. lolz

after tt. the guys went play soccer. ~~and i, "legend" killer killed the "legend".~~ ok. tts rubbish. we keep playing street soccer till like 6pm and all go home.

ok. i've made up my mind to stop using the laptop since its v time consuming and sometimes v distracting.
so let's pray i can kick the habit of online-ing every min of my life at home and spend the time more fruitfully.

alrite. its a long post. wun be blogging till duno when. so study hard ppl and all the best for promos!

i'm like nobody to u
but you're my everything
i dun expect you to love an ugly being like me
but i wish to be of more importance in ur heart.
unrequited love;

2006-08-28T23:42:00.000+08:00

i thought we were ready for everything.
i guess we i messed up pretty badly
i should've chosen a day to have a dry run.

being the 1st to go wasn't an excuse for today's failure.

i guess i was too over confident and pride let me took a fall.
we lack of practice yet i overlook this point.
damn it. damn it all.

our grp was labelled as a distinct grp inefficient one.
different fonts were used
some didn't prepare their script.
some didn't memorise our part
some referred to the ppt
some dun even know wat the heck is going on in our proposal

yes. pardon me for being critical. but i just think if today was the actual op.
it would have been a flop
we'll be known as jokers who dun regard the importance of pw

and much credit goes to me.
"thank you"

2006-08-28T00:53:00.000+08:00

Gd morning peepz.
i'm here blogging after doing my chi compo for like 4hrs.
nah. its not a long one. but its becoz i slack alot in between.
to add on to that. i've been running a fever the whole afternoon w/o knowing until just now. when i tried walking to get my file.

man. wat a bad start to kick off the week.
tml urs truly will be doing 2 presentation- project work & maths
and i'm currently writing my script for the o.p. [oral presentation]

anyway. i'll end this entry wif something i "blog-surfed" upon and found it funny.

One fine greenday, good charlotte came up with a simple plan. She bought a yellowcard for 50cent and drew some pussycat dolls on it. Suddenly, a mcfly landed on her card and her atomic kittens ran over and ate it up, together with her card. Good charlotte was so upset so she decided to go to linkin park to cry. She took a first step with her right foot, then she switchfoot and used her left foot. Finally, she reached linkin park, and she cried till her eyes stung so much she blink 182 times. An old lady saw her crying and gave her some limp bizkit with black eyed peas on top. She was happy for a moment until she took her first bite. OMG! Inside the cookie there was some red hot chilli peppers. That made poor good charlotte cry even more. She went in search for some water and arrived at savage garden, where there were a few fountains of wayne. She drank a few mouthfuls but it was still too hot, she needed something sweet. So she went to a mama shop and boughtsome pug jelly. However, that did not do the trick either. She began to feel sick and feverish. She ran home and checked her temperature OMG! 98 degrees! She died immediately. As charlotte was a good girl, she went to heaven. On her way up, she started counting crows.

try finding the dif english song bands in this lil short para. enjoy

yes joan. you were scammed by iamtheONE. ONcE again. hahax.
gtg. fever's getting onto me.

2006-08-26T18:21:00.000+08:00

a little reflection on the ne talk.
others say we srjc suck
mr philip.tan said we're a disgrace.
yes i admit i'm a disgrace of srjc.
but ain't it ironic that i find srjc is a disgrace of me too?

so he movitated & brainwashed us with the "top 25%" and nv give up attitude
yet he led us wif a cheer -__-"
so srjc's a cheerleading team now huh.
a joke of the society
"srjc's all for U [ u-grade]"

yesterday. the cls went to bugis to buy duno wat teachers day stuffs. after tt they went to catch the movie " ghost camp" whereas i went to cp to meet zoe and qi han for dinner.
yes. its grt meeting up OLD friend [ miss cheng].
nothing much has changed. we had swensens & dinner was at BK.
after tt we took neoprint in the arcade when we duno how to use the machine. haha. so comical

today was vball's last training. coach didn't come.
train a lil and played like 5-6 matches.
tiring. lol
collect vball tees & had lunch at pastamania
quite pissed off coz of many lil issues.
felt so used

ok. time to mug full time.

2006-08-21T22:35:00.000+08:00

i've been reflecting this past few days on the friday incident.
yes. i admit. i'll be in the wrong if i were to really bash him up
but then again. i feel i'm doing myself a greater deal of wrongness coz tt guy really deserve some punishment.

i feel a mad urge and sensation inside. like a mad caged animal.
i'm worried abt the next time i lose my cool.
wat kinda hell will break lose.

i've changed. haiz

and i'm losing faith in everything

i dun want hi-and-bye from you.
i just want you.

2006-08-18T21:16:00.000+08:00

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RAHHHHH!!!!!!!
today stayed back after sch. studied wif some 1s13 peeps and the holyrians.
went to pe room to get back the missing vball the mr fucker lim ming hock confiscated.
NABEI he act big fuck kae. dun wan return vball still want vball team to write letter of fucking apology and letter of wat knn promise wif all the vball member signature.
FUCK LARH
he think we're so bo liao issit

after "debating" like 1/2hr. he bth and begin raise voice. big voice = big? WRONG man. still give me fucked up attitude and farked up excuse. NABEI
so it ended wif me still having no ball and kena anti-ed by another teacher.

thing doesn't get any worse than that. went back aquarium wif a damn farked up attitude. then blah1 tell me cheebye kia dun wan return another missing vball. ____ so wat. big meh? anyway cheebye ran pass aqua i was realli gg to beat him up even though 90% i say i want beat ppl up, i'm just talking cock. if not for blah1. i'll realli beat the fuck outta cheebye kia and hit headline news in srjc. lol

stuggled real hard to control the temper. its hard controlling ur temper when adrenaline is pumping through ur body & trying to focus to study. ok. so i asked blah2 to help me get vball back and so end up recover one ball.

on the way to return the ball. i saw cheebye kia. he still shout to me ' WALAO. poh wun nv give me face'
act zai issit. fuck him again man.
always go 'wazzup dude'
i tell u ' nabei. limbei buai song. still wazzup my lampa larh!'
anyway. i didn't pounce on him and bash him against the wall and smear his blood on table or make him say sry coz tummy hungry and v tired. so yah. ask that cheebye kia to count his 9 lives heng heng.
oyah. tell cheebye kia nt to let me see him. if nt i duno whether he'll be in one piece or not. haha.

p.s. i realised i'm damn vulgar. pardon me

2006-08-13T15:19:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to see fireworks with some of the 1s13 peeps. namely joan, jeremy, andy and huilin.

it was a rather hilarious outing. okay, maybe it was due to my crapping nature & joan's lil funny actions that made it so lively.
after having dinner at pastamania. we headed to esplanade to find a spot to watch the fireworks. damn. it was still as packed as last yr firework event. zZz. our spot wasn't tt bad. we were only block by a coconut tree whereas my other friend was blocked by the esplanade itself. haha.
ok. so we were seperated when the crowd dispersed. but we manage to found one another. not wanting to go home. we were left with raffles place & marina square. end up the OPPORTUNITY COST was forgo raffles place and go marina square. we walked stairs, climbed trees and hurdle over fences to get there. ~~clumsy~~ joan tripped over those seal-up thingy and broke her sandal. captain ~~planet~~ poh wun came to save the day but this ~~country bumpkin~~ damsel doesn't want to wear my shoe nor my socks but rather limped around wif a broken sandal. oh well. i guess this is know as "taste and preference of consumers" HAHA

ok. enuff of my nonsense. lemme round up.

we got ourselves a drink at 7-11 and bought from the black market since it was faster. everyone was rushing to go home that we forgot to take a grp pic together. pity. maybe the nxt time we'll have one. see joan's blog for some of the pics we took at www.starless-suite.blogspot.com

quote of the day

"EH whose bread!?" - joan

2006-08-08T21:36:00.000+08:00

today just suck.
everything just suck- sandcastle building, movie watching, pooling.

i felt a great deal of jealousy, disappointment & anger
some of ur actions irk me
i could only stand by & watch helplessly
wishing for u to be mine one day
helpless-ness; something i dun like one bit.

yes. i admit, my mood for day was spoilt just like that for just one stupid reason- jealousy & a mixed feeling of uncertainties.

i hate myself for being the coward sometimes.

2006-08-06T18:17:00.000+08:00

its been another ~~farked up~~ week.
had training on wednesday. mr chan not happy with me coz i oppose him. funny.. cca teacher angry becoz cca ppl want training. so he made a monkey outta me by making me do 50 'self-dig'
in front of my team. ~~nb sia~~. but i did 70+ to shut him up. haha

all the test i got back wasn't tt ideal. maths "full" mark. but chem & econ essay got last in cls. nb again.

finally got back my report book.
no. of h1 pass: 1
no. of h2 pass: 2
results : FAILED
Ranking points: 29
grades: S,S,D,E,E,U

mr ng said i should study hard. which i really did. but haiz. not gd enough i guess. wonder why this sch wants parent-meet-teacher session. like wat he said. we're only taught for 2mths. somemore, he doesn't really get to know us unlike the times in sec sch where the teachers know us slightly better. and he didn't tell my dad tt i only nid ONE more mark to change tt FAILED to PASSED.

ok. sian diao. i should have work harder and not aim at the 30 marker but instead aim for 60pts. =X

.. she is the one for iamtheone ..

2006-08-01T21:08:00.000+08:00

hey peeps. long time no blog. haha

my parents are back from their 10 day ~~suffering~~ honeymoon. meaning i dun have to struggle wif time to do my hw & hsework.
i learned to cherish my parents. haha

from today, i'll be wearing this stone thingy bought by my parents during their honeymoon. its said to bring health & stuff & to stop me from unleashing my superhuman powers like superman.
also, i really can't take tues. during gp tutorial, went to canteen to snack & found my LOST badminton racket.

tml cls would be rather empty coz got tekong trip except the band members + me. its weird, there'll be like only 10 ppl attending lessons.

oyah. did i mention i receive a trophy for interhse basketball, 2nd runner up. actually, i dun think i deserve it coz i only contributed v lil to the team. but thanks guys. its real nice. lazy to upload pic again. haha.

lastly, i realized tt i'm getting crappier by the day...

yes.i want to share my joy wif you

2006-07-26T20:35:00.000+08:00

another eventful day

a few days ago. there was this lil problem/dispute between this student and me [ i think] . anyway, the stituation has blown to a out-of-proportion problem today and there was a confrontation between her and another classmate. it ended in tears, hatred and fear.

honestly, i was much filled wif anger as to why this student had to "backstab" me and pushed all the blame to me. but after the day ended. i find myself feeling guilty and remorseful for her. maybe i'm a soft hearted weakling.....

ANYWAY. the matter is considered settled in a sense.. so back to my bad day

pe: run to bowen[poh wun's] sec sch and back. odac de captain/vice captain mock me coz i run slow. ~~farker~~
physics lecture, another guy i made friends with call me a fucker when i told him i transferred to srjc from cjc. his dream sch. haha. -_-

anyway. today art fest. did ~~dragon + pheonix~~ calligraphy. boring. i rather go drink tea. haha. anyway, many teachers came and took many pics of me, xc, yt, lw masterpieces. miss gan even wanted xc's " masterpiece" whereas miss goh request me to write her name. i got it wif me. but lazy to upload. haha.

yeah. As for gp as gratitude from her. wahaha. i'm fascinating once again..

kaes.. gotta do my hw. 2 tests tml. must find time to study too. ciaoz

2006-07-24T20:33:00.000+08:00

bad start to a bad week

today was mr rockmoc teacher last pe lesson for us coz he gg back reservice. he say he wanted to make it unforgettable & he realli did. lolz. He made me & wenhui lead the grp to run 4 rounds around the track coz we the weakest/laziest runners. he say if we stop 1/2way, he'll make us run another 2 rounds. haha. indeed memorable coz i remember me losing my breath in the 1st round and holding to mr elwin & mr constantine for support during the last 2 rounds. thanks guys.

with my body pushed to the limits. i struggled wif lessons till 3.30. b4 attending makeup gp lecture which lasted till 5.30. sian. tml lesson will end at 5.30 too.

oyah. we're supposed to have another long day on thurs i think due to chem makeup of some valid reasons. everyone rejoiced when teacher say it'll be pushed to nxt week. wonder wat are they so glad abt? our "punishment" was just postponed and not cancelled. =/

anyway, our cls won orion ppl in interhse badminton. rock on guys.

2006-07-23T00:36:00.000+08:00

i've thought through it
i wun let wat ppl say get to me
despite the comparison being often made
they placed their faith in me
and i should honour that faith

i've been uncertain
now i'm not

action will speak LOUDER than words
in times to come

but still, i'm nt gg to wear my badge coz i find its kinda kiddish looking. =/

2006-07-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

STRESSFUL & ~~FUCKING~~ week i had due to project work. anyway, its been eventful lately

let's begin with monday.
suffered from indigestion and vomitted the many mushrooms from kfc's chicken chop meal, basically my dinner wif angeline on sun.

srjcian day on wed.
wore no.11 jersey, haha. too bad not mine. but i swear i'm gg to have a no.11 jersey of my very own. ok. did the '30 sec of shame' wif jingjing noelle and qmo.
played interhse vball guys match but lost. #(*)@#$

thurs
lost in the interhse badminton men doubles. against the team of the captain of badminton himself and canoist v.captain i think

today
vball training today
kinda weird.
senior is kinda worried for us j1 guys.
dun say liao. haiz

tml's the dreaded day for everyone, pmt [parent meet teacher]. too bad my parents are away on a 10 days honeymoon. so i can slack tml while the rest worry. haha

am i really worthy?

2006-07-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

lost my appetite due to the bad days lately.

haven't had a proper meals in ages. lolz

i guess the bothered look i had yesterday

and the pissed-off look today told everything

yeah

so fuck off.

i feel like giving up ~~sometimes~~ every now and then.

interhse volleyball- mixed division today. dun wanna elaborate much. draco vs aquila in the finals this wed.

2006-07-14T01:37:00.000+08:00

its 1.33 in the morning. wonder how am i gg to wake up later/tml.
i'm blogging at this time coz i'm lending my laptop to wanqin.
maybe i'll nt be online during the weekends.
talking abt weekends.
most of our vball matches will be held on sat.
i'm nt sure abt my team winning though.
but all in all. its for the fun of sports.

so far. only took part in interhse bball [only a v.brief moment]
coz yah.. someone's word made sense in a way
so i'm
not playing basketball
already quit squash.
probably not signing up badminton. T_T

no more bagful of medals. haha.

anyway. on sat. mr toad made all the clc to be stage clowns for a full 30secs per cca.
stupid rite?

update the nxt time.
school ain't the school we all once knew

2006-07-10T23:21:00.000+08:00

alvl chi oral today.
doubt i'll do well =/

i hate tuesdays
especially tml's
from tml on. sch ends at 5.30
after tt, ne reps will be in charge of tabulating the results for the knockout round for srjc idol
which ends at 7pm.
zZz

2006-07-07T23:34:00.000+08:00

ok. its finally friday. an end to a horrible week.
it ended with us hihs guys ponning the ne seminar.

i hate my nxt week. more and more meetings.
anyway. interhouse starts next week.
so far. i've sign up for basketball, squash.
most probably badminton if there's one.
and of coz. volleyball.

i'll most probably be a gd guy. forfeit the match for squash in order to lessen the burden on my time. let him gloat. haha. i dun care.

below are a few cool links which jeremy intro-ed to me.

http://www.ebaumsworld.com/marioguitar.html <- i love this!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=hwK3zrqlBuA&search=jerry%20C

http://www.ebaumsworld.com/invisiblecards.html

ok. wish me luck. haha.

2006-07-05T22:57:00.000+08:00

ok. i've been reading my previous entry
no doubt. the resentment is getting greater as the days goes by =/

i guess eugene was right. anyone from other jcs (better ones) transfer to sr will indeed has his/her share of resentment. i bet lin wei & yt have theirs too. just that they'll rather keep it inside.

pe today was turned into a workshop. wat happened to all the sweating & exercising.
actually, this week's lesson is rather "strange". i think its due to the stupid management of lao kok.

got back my physics paper. scored a just nice 30/60. damn sad. becoz of one careless mistake made me lose like 6 marks for one question.

ppl say srjc is no gd
ironically srjc is too gd
other jc's lecturers would just let students study some chapters on their own.
but so far, has sr done so?
no
why?
coz they dun believe in us. they compromise us. teaching chap by chap.
hence, this explains the gap in learning pace between our sch & others.

i just hope tt in future to come, not for our batch
srjc would just be daring enough.
take that bold step.
ignore our complains
and let us learn how to survive.

its been a long post. ciaoz

2006-07-04T22:46:00.000+08:00

why do i have to face such farked up people everyday.
why do i have to bothered abt the projects which the teachers throw, when they might just be giving us the shit they dun wanna do.
i dun like sr
i should've stayed at cjc

i just hate today. my day lasted till 6.10pm which realli can turn any normal person off.

i'm starting to develop a strong disgust at ppl who are lazy, ppl dun bother to help themselves, ppl who dun give a damn to a group effort until the very last minute.

i'm tired. tired from all the stuffs and people i see.

no volleyball tml. sian

2006-07-02T15:22:00.000+08:00

nowadays, people come in a pair. go in a pair

i long for that too.
someone to share my pain & joy
someone to shed some light onto my dull life
and turn this AH BENG into a MR NICE GUY
i've been walking my 17 years of life all alone.
will she ever come into my life?
will you be MINE
i doubt so...
maybe i'm destined to be a loner.

back to reality,
yesterday, we[the guys] celebrated lin wei & nicholas bday.
after tt, we[ angeline & co.] watched superman returns

some thoughts abt the show:

.superman outfit looks alot like cj's pe shirt. no wonder everyone wants it
.He's a guy after all. being a hero doesn't mean he cannot make u a cuckold.

here's a lil ironic thing i've noticed.
strangers (in sr) know my name & pronounce it well
sadly, there're friends out there who duno my name nor can they pronounce my name at all.

the world's a weird place to live in.

2006-06-30T18:50:00.000+08:00

he's from singapore
he has a blog
he is xiaocong aka wormie!

www.xiaocong.blogspot.com

haha. dun get me wrong. he's not the xiaocong that we all know.
feeling a lil bored now. thats why i'm blogging such nonsense

to be added on the previous entry,
i saw yaqi yesterday with her green NIKE bag. she was in her blue MJC uniform with the silver collar pin. she looked the same. but we didn't really talk much coz i was bz mugging for chem.

p.s. yaqi. happy now? lolz

2006-06-30T10:57:00.000+08:00

I'VE BEEN TAGGED!

Favourites
Favourite Colour: BLUE.
Favourite Food: fast food? [ no wonder i'm so big]
Favourite Song: Mr Brightside
Favourite Movie: Saw II, scary movie 4
Favourite Sport: V for volleyball.
Favourite Day of the Week: Saturday
Favourite Season: winter.
Favourite Ice Cream: Sticky Chewy Chocolate

Currents
Current Mood: sian
Current Taste: adidas
Current Clothes: cjc pe t shirt & oasic shorts.
Current Desktop: no desktop. only laptop
Current Toe nail Colour: normal color.
Current Time: 1055
Current Surroundings: my bedroom
Current Annoyances: none, nobody at home.
Current Thoughts: How to settle my meals for today

Firsts
First Best Friend: Xiaocong
First Movie: Jurassic park. I think
First Lie: I dun lie. haha

Lasts
Last Cigarette: I dun smoke
Last Drink: Plain water.
Last Car Ride: yesterday if public transport is counted.
Last Crush: ermm.. haha
Last Movie: da vinci code
Last Phone Call: home.
Last CD played: tts very long ago. I listen to the music in the com.

Have you ever
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: nope
Have you ever broken the law: nah.
Have you ever been arrested: no
Have you ever skinny-dipped: no
Have you ever been on TV: no
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: no

Things
5 things you are wearing: t-shirt. shorts. skin. Argh. I duno wat else
4 things you done today: wake up. On tv. On laptop. Brush teeth. Chatting msn.
3 things you can hear right now: keyboard sound, television, my sniffing.
1 thing you do when you are bored: play game. haha

i'll be nice. nobody will be tagged from here.

2006-06-29T16:11:00.000+08:00

hurray. the exams are over for the moment.

i realize that its another big jump in olvl standard to a lvl standard. whereby scoring an A seems to be almost impossible.
let's be honest, if u thought srjc paper was tough, wait till u get a taste of papers from other jcs. Admit it, sr is spoonfeeding us. whoever heard of gp test of our kind. wat a joke.

anyway, i've bought a misaka volleyball. yes. training will resume soon i hope.

actualli, i got many things i wanna blog but i duno where to start. damn

2006-06-23T17:02:00.000+08:00

one last post b4 the common test cum EXAMS

self reflection: kinda sidetrack when it comes to revision. but i hope i still can ~~pass~~ score.

i'm kinda excited actually, over stuffs like
-wat questions srjc's gg to come up with based on their standard.
-how am i going to cope with the 1.5hr for each paper.
most important, its going to end in less than a week's time. LOL!

my target?
score in chem!

okay. lemme end off with the list of things i'm gg to get after i'm done with the tests.

volleyball
a new bag
a new shoe bag?

actualli. apart from the 1st 2 stuff. i duno wat else to buy.

did i mention abt a dream i had a few days ago? tt i was the main spiker in a volleyball match. LOL. i must be suffering from post volleyball training syndrome.

ok. guess its time to end this entry.

tml's the 1st & the worst- gp

everyone, its time to s-c-o-r-e

2006-06-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

argh, today was a series of bad events

-overspent on a 3/4
-got killed 10 times by yt durin dota
-got caught by the sbs bus's door

but i guess. each event has it own reason. especially the bus incident. if not for my superhuman strength, i'd died like any human.

alrite. i'm crapping this post. nt feeling well. must be becoz i slept at 3 & forced myself to wake up at 10. didn't study for the day. haiz.

i'm turning in. nitez

2006-06-20T15:35:00.000+08:00

yesterday's BBQ

man. i've been attending bbqs on a weekly basis - 4hum'05, swat team, the bros[hmm. we should come up wif our grp name] at the same place, pasir ris park. geez. i'm realli putting on weight with the lack of exercise.

i fell for leslie trick on the way home.argh. lemme go into detail

leslie msg " eh. help me check if my phone in de bus no. i lost it"
after finishing a call, i went to the back of the bus, searching for it.
then i asked everyone where leslie sat. a lil confusing, guess leslie's presence was a lil non-existing
finally, it struck to me tt LESLIE TANG ZHI RONG had scam me!

today i burnt a small hole in my 3/4s coz the iron was preset too hot. dad took a look & he tore it. saying the material become "paper-like". now i got no more 3/4s to wear
took a bath & miss cheng told mi she got gastic & can't meet for lunch. so i just went to fry some calamari to fill my stomach. another oily meal. lol.

my dad keep complaining abt the chicken should not be marinated with the sauces & stuff. just bbq the plain chicken & coat wif butter. watever.. we can't see eye to eye, period.

alrite. guess i should be mugging. ciaoz

2006-06-18T00:54:00.000+08:00

hey peeps.

i here mugging, finally
doing chem. revised a lil on mole & cheong redox. i finally know how to do! nxt left. bondings.

today went out to celebrate papa day.
though beginning there was a lil disharmony but the day was enjoyable.
had dinner at canton wok, a restaurant well known for its cze char. nt bad lah. didn't quite like the fried fish in spinach sauce. yucks. haha

then we headed to kovan.
i've gotten my pair of shoes. but i duno why i feel kinda guilty. ironically, i dun remember feeling guilty after getting my oasic pair which costs 4 times more.
bought some stuff for the bbq too. so there wun be much hassle rushing from one place to another.

okay. i hate blogging chronologically. but too tired to sum up for the day

miss cheng! when are u free? meet up leh. i still owe u a meal. haha.

i dun wanna pass common test.
i want to farking-ly score can?!?!

one more week

2006-06-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

ok. i'm realli turning to a slackker
today i wanted to mug like shit
and darn it was really shit (literally)
up till now. i did another gp paper. & marked one
apart from that. i've spend my day idling, deposit my savings, returned library book, paired the socks from the laundry. lol. u wun believe how productivity i was.

i dun feel like gg for tml 4hrs of econs. even the most studious mugger will find it hard to digest.
haiz. i've slack. nv in my studying life have i ponned so many lessons.
tired, tired from trying to finish all the unfinishing tutorials
sick, sick of all the boring tutorials/lectures whereby u spend endless hours copying answers.

anyway, tml will be a better day. i'm getting my new shoes!

2006-06-14T22:29:00.000+08:00

yea man!
yesterday had bbq with roysten & co.
its fun seeing one another after some time.
everyone's still the same. haha

today was the end of the vball training. nxt training will be after holidays. i think i getting the hang of it already.

finally. things are getting in place.

2006-06-11T23:42:00.000+08:00

2 mins to the start of the 3rd week of june. look at how time flies

achievements of today: 2 gp passages , 12hrs of gd rest

comments: SLACK

i'll change :)

2006-06-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

why do human want to strive for perfection?
they always think abt the future & forget to enjoy the present times

for me. i dun believe in perfection
imagine if everyone in this world are genuines who always get 100% for tests
who's there to judge who's smart and whose not.
similarly in love
unless u put ur love under the test- conflicts, quarrels & misunderstanding
only then u'll know the swt/bitterness of love
if every guy was a hunk & every woman was a beauty
who is to comment whose gd-looking/not so gd looking

my point is. There's a need for a contrast in everything. God [if he ever existed] made us all different & unique in a way where there's a distinct contrast between everyone of us. Yet, this world is trying to remove this feature which they call a 'flaw'

2006-06-10T12:45:00.000+08:00

back from camp.
didn't realli enjoy it
i grew withdrawn over the 3 days.
& oh. i realised i cannot live w/o technology- my handphone
but on the bright side, i've forged friendship with others.

even after the camp. we're all tasked with cca projects. getting kinda worried about my time management. scarly i nxt yr repeat or go poly. worse. stuck w/o education.

ok. i'm scaring myself.

i guess after the weekends. i've gotta mug really really hard. the common test are drawing damn near.

alritey. time to do my eom. ciaoz

2006-06-05T21:54:00.000+08:00

7 wonders of today

stella called me a pufferfish
had chinese oral & i scored 8/10 for oral, 16/20 for conversation. woot.
some guy from 1S09 whom i duno shouted " CAPTAIN!" to me across the traffic
today i suck in vball
i still dun understand why my chinese name is exactly the same as BOWEN sec
had dinner with kevin
i'm at home wif tonnes of hw to do.

lame. i'm just trying to make my entries look unique but it seem to fail.

2006-06-05T21:50:00.000+08:00

4hum bbq was quite fun.
though less than half the class made it
played vball, football, monkey ball, captain ball etc
xiong's culinary skill was put to the test
and vuala! we had xiong's specialty ham.
consisting of ham, cheese, samba chilli, mayonnaise & i-duno-wat-other-stuff
seriously it tasted great. lol

kudos to the organisers & those who turn up coz everyone played a part to make this bbq a success. =)

2006-06-03T00:12:00.001+08:00

yesterday the guys went to watch X-men 3 & Da Vinci Code. it was shiok watching 2 movies in one day. both movie were great.

today afternoon did pw with the grp at national library. quite fruitful unlike the last time. on the way back home, huilin asked me a question.
every coin has its 2 sides
well. i can't say i've nv regretted at all.
but since i've decided to walk this path. i shouldn't regret my decision

like fear.
why fear the uncertainty when u nv know that it might be nothing at all.

ok. back to my day.

met the gang to catch the HIHS in harmony concert.
the concert was erm. okay.
the only highlight was mr tan with his hot HOT dance.

gym session tml
gotta train myself to be worthy of volleyball captain.
heez

2006-06-03T00:12:00.000+08:00

2006-05-31T22:20:00.000+08:00

woot. been some time since i've blog
getting used to some stuff at vball now
over the week. we had a friendly match wif the gals
then today coach came & even it was a 1.5 hr. it seem more training than usual ones.

after training. met SOMEONE to pass me ticket. tt SOMEONE v funny larh. thought eugene was me. hahaha. then tt SOMEONE mum pass me dou hua. SOMEONE dad gave me a lift home too. SOMEONE & family so nice to me. lolz

ah. mum was sick today. so it was time to display my culinary skills. but my cooking is so damn rusty tt i forgot to add seasoning to the porriage. lucky got meatball if not mum eat le more sick. haha. alrite. tts my day. ciaoz

2006-05-26T23:42:00.000+08:00

today attended the briefing of the leadership camp thingy. i'm in JAGUAR!!!
mr philip tan sit down at the stage realli look like humpty dumpty. LOL

argh. my SPA result. messed up Q1. f***

stupid larh. the key i duplicate for the vball locker had problems. means have to make another trip back again.

vball training during the holidays. means i'll probably miss the hihs concert thingy.

i still dun believe in myself

2006-05-25T23:12:00.000+08:00

went back to old sch to get our concert tickets
after tt went to duplicate vball keys b4 go home
& finally had family dinner coz today wasn't so hectic

i think i'm giving myself too much self pressure
nvm.
just do it

tml's the final day of the week theoratically.
in real life. we still have to study on sat.

2006-05-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

i've gotten my wish come true.
but
i just duno whether i'm realli up to it
haiz

2006-05-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

today was pure damn bad luck
went to cafe to order a burger & took a big bite.
only to realise the meat was raw -_-""
the auntie was nice enuff to change for me
it was cooked. well. partially. didn't want to make tings tough for the auntie
so just threw the burger away.

anyway. on a high note.
my maths quiz is finally showing some of my "colors"
i got 8/10! i should get the gd improvement award man

tml's the start of my 4 tests.
and also volleyball election day.

a BIG day. but issit MY day?

2006-05-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

this week:
4tests
sat's schooling day

suddenly sch doesn't interest me tt much anymore.

2006-05-20T22:53:00.000+08:00

back from vball camp.
overall quite fun.
2 days of p.t
at nite got water games but we let gurls tts why lose lol.
slept at the classroom, everyone slp using the table but i use chairs. regret. backache sia.
through camp. got to know the jc2s slightly better. the jc1s now quite bonded.
we got a presumed position on the court alrdy
i'm a spiker! same as deacon. haha
also we'll be discussing our jersey design this coming wed or sat.

election day on weds.

earlier on. the guys went to celebrate xc & kc bday. then play abit of bball jiu leave le. yuppz. i guess tts it. ciaoz ppl

2006-05-19T00:46:00.000+08:00

hi peeps.
life lately have been damn hectic man. slping at 1,2,1 [1am , 2am, 1am]
just to get the gpp done & redone again.
well. finally its been approve.
my grp just did finish the written report.
tml we'll be getting our survey approved. hopefully.
i just find our grp putting in double the effort to get only half the results. i guess i gotta start viewing wats my problem of managing again.

oyah. volleyball camp is tml. so hyped up coz nv had a cca camp b4. haha.
its only 2 days. so dun miss me too much kae?

let me be the one.

2006-05-16T00:14:00.000+08:00

the start of another dreaded week

had to do running for pe as i fail my 2.4. my cg was quite nice. especially jeremy. andy. shi yong. constantine. ethel & meiling who cheered me on. lol. but still fail.
play badminton. duno why after playing some time. my cls de gals & other cls de guys all gather to watch like playing national finals lidat. still got gals go " woohhh ahhh wahhh"
slack at the aqua after sch with evelyn while waiting for angeline. then had dinner at hk cafe. after tt start having headache until now. maybe tml if still not okay. will get mc & skip sch till 5pm.haha

2006-05-13T02:58:00.000+08:00

ok. changed my skin as the previous one had many problems.
#*(#&%(
no offence to anyone reading my blog.
just that i find this skin amusing.
changed the song too
but somehow it doesn't fits in.

today was a day well spent on ROTTING
lunch: pizza and shepherd pie [pie stuffed with shepherd boi & dog meat. LOL]
dinner: initially the family planned to eat a restaurant but there was no space. so we went chomp chomp to catch a bite.

yah. i know. i'm gg to be obese & maybe run 30 mins for my 2.4
so i just did some exercise just now but the darn wrist wun let me do pumping.
anyway. its 3am in the morning.
i should realli slp. bye

2006-05-11T23:42:00.000+08:00

had our dics follow up session today
one conclusion; shannon was OWNING
i somehow dun remember most of my day.

so let's talk about the stuff my classmates assumed abt me
i wear contacts
i'm from nan chiau [lol]
i'm an ah beng
i'm chinaman
jc1 repeat student
smoke [wth]

as u can see. its ranked according to their seriousness of misconcept about me
already cleared the fog of misconception to some of them.

well. they had their reasons too lah.
like how my stamina suck to the core due to smoking. =/

vesak day tml. meaning another week of extended xiao zhou mo..!!

2006-05-10T22:31:00.000+08:00

I suck in 2.4 ppl run finish 6rounds. i just started my 5th. pe teacher say from next games time, it'll be all run & no play.
chi lesson teacher give us listen to 'farewell' song through the whole 1hr. plus watch video clip on the 'papa something flower withering'. lol
finally had vball training. buthen it was on a low note. ran another 4 rounds led by ah pek. meaning total of 10 rounds (wth). then mr "Q-mo" is officially in vball. trained us in "dig-ing" but he was abit.... dun want to comment anything if nt other ppl say i shoot him. lol.
maybe from nxt week on. i'll go for full training... see hw

i respect those who are respected by others

wat in the world have i done to make u angry?